“Stay busy, stay focused on what’s up ahead.
No matter what, don’t think.
Don’t talk about it.
Brain is a spinning top that turns and jumps, try to quiet it and the invisible hand hits the reset button, round and round we go again.
Drink. Drugs. Anything to numb it out.
Can’t deal with your BS right now.
Avoid That! No point going there.
No, pull back.
Push those guys away. Nobody needs me in their lives, I’m too messed up. The world is better off without me.
I can’t turn my brain off.
Push them away…”
When do you know you have a problem? You already know. Because up there, that list of thoughts? That’s your brain and it will kill you if you let it.
Have a flick through this list and see which ones apply to you.
The step to healing is a hard one to take. The diagnosis hits you hard, punches you to the ground no matter how prepared you are for it because everybody knows that PTSD is something only weak people get and everybody with it kills themselves. Look at the PTSD world were so many hold onto their injury like a baby blanket. Record stuck: I’m broken; my service owes me; I can’t exist without my dog/coping skills.
Load of horse manure that. PTSD is a treatable injury. You can continue to work as a soldier, first responder, doctor, whatever you wish: I can point you to those that prove it. Ignore the drama queens. The sooner you get help the sooner you can regain your life. Ignore it, try to cope by yourself and you will die or morph into one of those guys with a baby blanket called “My PTSD”. Need more information go to PTSDChat.org or join in on Twitter every Wednesday 6pm PST/9pm EST #PTSDChat.
Kate Gillie is an artist and writer who has had Early Childhood Complex PTSD since she was young; born in the Rhodesian Bush War (1970-80), living with her young brother on an isolated coffee estate on what was ground zero for the war, she was exposed to all the brutalities of an African war. Having survived suicide, she dedicated her life to bringing an end to the isolation of so many suffer, fight the STIGMA of PTSD, and its myths and misconceptions. To this end, she and WHOA Media created #PTSDChat and PTSDChat.org, a global resource for all those with PTSD, a hub of information, blogs from PTSD Warriors, research, and resources across the globe.